Some testimonials of PSSD suffers from the web . . .
May 3, 2014 paxilprogress
So it’s been about a year now and no tangible signs of relief from PSSD as of yet. The pleasure center of my brain remains effectively shut down like a corrupt, damaged and inaccessible hard drive.
Is it For Ever?
At the moment as far as anyone knows, the answer is yes. There may be some people who recover but if there are there seems to be no reliable way to get recovery to happen. The PSSD community between them have tried all the obvious things. What might work for one doesn’t for others. At the moment, time does not seem to be a healer. - See more at: http://wp.rxisk.org/drugs-and-sex-dont-go/It’s disheartening, to say the least, having read countless testimonials from people who have tried their very best, for the better part of ten years or more, to overcome a pleasureless existence rife with genital and emotional numbness.
It is especially disheartening when considering how Citalopram has thus far robbed me of everything short of chemical castration. My protracted withdrawal and persistent anhedonia is a kind of torture usually reserved for the likes of Theon Greyjoy.
It's no secret, after all, that in some cases, these poisonous drugs have been administered for the express purpose of suppressing sex drive.
While theories abound as to what causes PSSD including anything from brain or nerve damage to 5-HT1A receptor desensitization to damaged or even modified DNA; my biggest concern, beyond permanent anhedonia, is the possibility that my PSSD could somehow be transgenerationally inherited. It’s one thing for me to be condemned to a life without an emotion chip ala Star Trek: TNG's Data, but potential offspring should not be punished as well.
Nevertheless, I'll continue to try and recover as best I can, by natural means, through acupuncture, exercise, nutrition and natural supplements.
Good luck, and godspeed to you all.
Oct 13, 2011 pssd.forumotion.com
Hello, figured I would officially introduce myself. I am 27, living in the west coast of the US. I took Effexor for 8 months and then switched to Zoloft because my doc said it might reduce the sexual side effects (of course it didn't, if the doc knew anything he would have at least suggested wellbutrin). I took zoloft for 8 month as well, more or less. I don't recall the exact details. Anyhow about a year and a half in total. November 2008 I quit the drugs so its been 3 years since I have been off.
I suffer from reduced sensation and difficulty obtaining and maintaining erections. I also have the odd symptom of soft glans syndrome. That is I can get the shaft quite hard but the glans and spongiosum don't fill really at all which may also be involved in the reduced sensation.
I have tried having sex three times since getting off the drugs. One time I was successfully able to penetrate but lost my erection fairly quickly and had very reduced sensations compared to what I remember pre-SSRIs. I am still hoping to cope and find a loving partner if I can. I have noticed a lot of those who have recovered have done so with the love and support of a partner. Right now I am single but we'll see how it goes.
I have tried Cialis and Viagra which help some. I have also attempted many different supplements. The only improvement I have really seen is that my testosterone levels used to be around 300 which is fairly low but through Zinc and exercise I got them back into the 700s. I hope to participate in the research here. Hopefully we can all figure out a way to over come PSSD. I also hope since this is a public forum others can learn about the dangers of SSRIs. Please do your research if you are considering taking them. I wish I had. Honestly the side effects far outweigh the benefits.
July 10, 2013 at 3:14 pm
Thank you, thank you, thank you… for getting us PSSD victims heard! The drug industry sticks their head in the sand in denial and they continue to tell the Drs. that this is not possible. It is! It is very real! I have had this for more than 5 years and do not have any anxiety or depression issues to blame it on. I was able to overcome my anxiety through natural means but unfortunately it was after I already tried the SSRIs.
Thank you, Dr. Healy, for creating this website and having the guts to speak the truth. I will look forward to your future posts!
July 11, 2013 at 9:25 am
Thanks for bringing this problem to the open.
I am sufferor of PSSD ever since I started Seroxat (Paroxetine) and stop using it for 3 years ago.
From the medical field I got zero accountability or help. I am so happy someone is willing to take a stand in this.
Looking forward to the upcoming articles!
July 11, 2013 at 12:02 pm
Many in the psychology profession are stil balking at recognizing this problem and , worst of all, continue to encourage the use of SSRIs
December 14, 2014 at 10:58 pm
I don’t know what you people are thanking this site for. It says there is no cure. That’s horrible news! I’m only 20 years old and cannot feel sex. I haven’t even started my life and it’s already ruined! My boyfriend is understanding but he cannot wait forever for me to be able to orgasm. I hate my doctor for doing this to me, for not telling me the side effects. I started on citalopram and only took it for 7 months before I had to stop because I didn’t want the effects becoming permanent. But I have stopped taking any medication for three months now and no sexual feeling has returned. Life sucks.
December 21, 2014 at 10:58 pm
The user jackie who posted in 2013, reading your post is exactly how i feel. I am numb to everything. Prescribed seroxat in 1999 and it was only this summer i managed to come off it. But it has left me a shell of a human being, i have no joy or excitement about life no passion nothing. As well as being lifeless it left me virtually impotent.
September 9, 2015 at 2:46 am
I just stopped paroxetine a couple of weeks ago after taking it for 3 months (decided to just deal with anxiety and take it for being sick of side effects)and have had sexual problems since. Im just finding out this might be permenent.WTF!!! The doctor that perscribed me that crap never even mentioned anything at all about sexual side effects much less losing my ability to finish!! 35;no kids….life sucks
November 30, 2015 at 10:54 pm
I am in my 40’s and I was on Aropax for about 16 years. It destroyed any libido I had. My performance was good while I was on the drug but I had no libido. When I finally got off the drug I noticed that my libido stayed low and my performance was terrible. I am presently using Viagra and sometimes it works and sometimes it does not. I am desperate for answers to help with regaining my libido and sexual performance. Can any one help?
February 20, 2016 at 4:11 am
I have lost myself and sexuality too. I want to sue them. Can we sue? Not that it will change anything for us but maybe it will stop them from harming others. I was never told this could happen and be permanent. It ruined my marriage and life.
July 19, 2016 at 4:00 pm
Kathleen~Exactly what I was thinking. They need to be sued. Money is the only thing these drug industries understand. From reading the above posts, I am sickened by the amount of people whose lives have been ruined, but when I read about someone as young as 20 and has been permanently affected by the drug, I can’t believe there is no lawsuit happening now!
October 9, 2016 at 5:06 pm
I had taken a number of SSRIs and SNRIs since my teen years and never had any problems with sexual dysfunction. In my early 30s, I tapered off paxil. In the midst of severe, debilitating withdrawal symptoms (nausea, vomiting, insomnia, suicidality, etc.), I experienced a huge surge in my sex drive. Then, nothing. It was like someone pulled the plug. That was 12 years ago, and my libido has never returned. I have told this story to countless doctors, but none believes the drug to be the cause. Why isn’t this problem more widely known?!
I did end up back on antidepressants, but I believe the damage is permanent and would not be remedied by stopping again. I can only hope that people considering going on SSRIs have this information before making a decision. I wish I had.
November 29, 2016 at 5:47 pm
where could I start? the feeling that I lost one of my sences and I had to live with it is the one overwhelming me now. And it is exactly described in the article. As if one lost the grace of his sight or his hearing sense, I think I reached a point that I should accept the fact I wpnt have any libido anymore.
Before : I used to enjoy sex life and had the capability to reach orgasm 2-3 times , each time 20-30 minutes. in the meantime I was suffering from depression that kept me moving forward. I started on Prozac for the following 2 years, during which I did not have any sexual relations. Rather, I met a girl whom I married later and that is when I found out I lost my libido. My doctor changed the medecine to Cymbalta , but same situation persists. Finally he changed to fluxetine, again no change. After 15 months of marriage, we barely had sex , and if any : it is without full desire, without passion and without ejaculation. I had to use performance enhancers like Viagra or Levetra, but they all help a man get an erection, and an erection without a desire , is just like any muscle in your body developing a crimp!
After stopping the medicine and this was since 5 months, no significant improvement, no libido , no desire , nothing moves me , and at 35 years old, my feeling toward sex is just like those at 80s! my life is being ruined, I am back depressed because of this and after thinking I would stay with my love forever, I feel I cannot continue this life , which is heart breaking for both of us.
Thanks for reading , and appreciate the graces of God before a time comes and they disappear
January 3, 2017 at 7:18 pm
I’ve felt the side-effects too, only after a few days and yes, it’s real. It is just unbelievable that this stuff (so-called antidepressants) can even be marketed. And a total black-out in the media with the web of lies and blame-the-victim mentality you get stuck in, when speaking up. I’m not even going to talk about the lack of ethics and rampant corruption in the medical profession, that this issue brings out. How can it be prescribed to children? How can it be prescribed to men, how can it be prescribed at all? I’m really grateful to this website for addressing this problem, seems to be the only one. Hope some lawsuits go out fast, that’s the only way to bring about some change and my heart goes out to all victims.
Posted September 23, 2014
hey! I just joined this site. I am a 23 year old female and took citalopram from age 16-19. I experienced genital anaesthesia, no libido and complete loss of sexuality and hoped that this would stop at discontinuation of the medicine. However I have been off the medication for 4 years now and nothing has returned back to normal and I still experience the same symptoms. I am so unhappy and frustrated about this. Has anything been found to restore sexual function, sensation? Are there any cases where PSSD actually went away after some time? Any information would be so helpful
Sett 23, 2011 paxilprogress.org
I've been off Paxil for 6 months now, but the sexual side effects have only gotten worse. I have no libido at all - even seeing an attractive woman doesn't arouse me in the slightest. It's all just blah.
My depression has lifted quite a bit since then due to efforts on my own part to get out into the world and socialize, make connections, try new things, etc. but the one thing I cannot fix is my erectile dysfunction and loss of libido.
The other day I went to the urologist to see if he could help. He didn't know what PSSD was but in not so many words, he acknowledged that SSRIs can effectively shut down the the circular pathway that regulates arousal and erections.
When I told him I'd been off the medication for 6 months he was very surprised and blatantly told me to my face that if it didn't come back after that time period, its never going to come back.
I'm a virgin. I'll never be able to have sex. This is what Paxil has done to me.
Nov 4, 2012 paxilprogress.org
So ive been reading on here for awhile but just made an acct cause i just had to say sumthing. im 19 btw
My story- Took paxil for anxiety on and off for 2 years no problems at all. the only thing was after awhile of taking it i felt that it didnt work as well so thats why i started and stopped to kind of like reset it. and like i said above no problems at all. The last time i took paxil was probably sometime in march 2012.
June of 2012- Took 10mg of prozac for 2 weeks bc i thought another ssri could help me more. One day when i was having sex with my gf i kind of lost my hardness which neverrrrrr happens. so i was like **** this must be the prozac so i didnt take it the next day or ever again. i was totally fine after that. THEN 2 weeks later, randomly, my penis shuts down. all of a sudden its all flacid and i have 0 sex drive. it was a complete reversal cause i was a pretty horny guy. THEN 10 days later, everything came back. completely back to normal and i was very relieved because i was freaked out for 10 days. THEN another 10 days after that, it came back. Same exact thing as before, no sex drive, no erections, everything felt numb. That day was july 24th. As im writing this it is now november 4th. Ive had some days where i felt like i was maybe 25% of what i used to be, but most days suck. This is literally the worst thing to ever happen to me, as im sure you all can relate. Its a total life changer, and i hate myself for ever taking prozac. What bothers me is that i only took it for 2 weeks. how in the hell can i get so messed up by taking 10mg for 2 weeks. Like what would happen if i just took one pill? would the same thing happen?
Anyway, i thought that within a few months i would be fine, as i read online that prozac can stay in the body for a very long time, with people saying 3 months max.
Now its been over 4 months and im just losing hope. With all that i have read it really scares me. I have a doctors appt with a uroligist who specializes in this kind of stuff at the end of this month but i know theres nothing doctors can really do. Im not going to take any more medication or testosterone crap that i have heard on here some ppl do.
I started taking zinc and b6 about 10 days ago as ive read some ppl had success with it. other than that idk what else to do. i might try acupuncture. i know everyone here says time is what heals, but everyday is a struggle. its all i can think about, and i feel like im letting my gf down. we still have sex but its maybe like 3 times a week instead of 3 times a day. and wen we do have sex its never good for me. my erection is just barely good enough to work and it just isnt fun for me. Oh and i feel absolutely nothing wen i ejaculate.
Anyone out there, please share your opinons about my story and of course what have ur own experience with pssd been like? Please, i just need some positive support.
Thanks guys
Jan 1, 2012 paxilprogress.org
Hi guys, let me drop here my story.
I took antidepressants to deal with my PE problem.
As first I took Serlift(Sertralin) just for a 5 days - I quit it due to significant side effects - I felt dizzy etc. but it didn't affect a lot my sexuality - right after I quit it everything was OK.
I said to myself I'm not gonna treat with it anymore. This was 2 years ago - 2010 beginning.
PE problem continuous, and after 2 years I have visited sexologist again and he advised me to try Paretin (paroxetin) 20mg/day for about 2 months.
I had a relationship so good time to try I thought.
After the first pill, I felt tingling in my penis (pins and needles).
But I didn't feel dizzy etc. as with Serlift so I continue to used it to day when I woke up with no erection. I wasn't able to obtain erection from visual stimuli, and when I get erection it could be hard just for a couple of sec without physical stimulation. So I quit it immediately and found this group and other posts from people they have used it and became worry.
I took Paretin(paroxetin/paxil) "just" for 2 weeks (11 tbl) but I still have significant PSSD after already 6 months after I quit it.
I quit it cold turkey without any problems.
My morning erections came back but not as hard as it was before.
My ejaculation is not as strong and ejaculate also seems retarded - watery.
My libido is really weak - pretty 0.
I cant get erection from visual stimuli - or it needs lot of concentration.
I have never ever before feel depression or so. But these days I really understand those they are close to suicide thinking.
After quitting I hoped its not gonna take so long to recover - I felt fine. But then I lost job, I was under lot of pressure - and then I started to feel really weird - I cant even describe it - I'm like no passion for anything, I was into sport a lot - gym, hockey, etc.
I feel like slowed down - I perceive world around me differently. Im scared of it. I got a new job - better than the last one - so it shouldn't be due to that.
This is probably what you called "brain fog".
Is there anyone who took paxil or other SSRI for "just" short period of time and recover quickly? I mean completely.
I am not sure from reading all these posts whether there is any differentiation between those who took it for a year or just for a month/or less.
I have already visited endocrinologist to make my tests done:
- TSH 1,1 mIU/l, FTEST 13,5 pg/ml, LH 2,4 IU/l, FSH 1,8 IU/l, PROL 4,9 ng/ml
So as you can see Test level is really low for my age (31), but prolactine level is pretty good so it doesn't follow PSSD theory as much - I mean in my case it is not prolactine which decreases testosterone level.
Now I'm confused, as a lot of scenarios I have seen related to PSSD - I'm not sure to which I'm fit in.
Prior SSRI I was completely OK (except PE) - but after I'm still not as I used to be - still low libido, not 100% erection, weak semen, not getting hard from visual stimuli as I used to, but I can have orgasm without any problems.
Jan 23, 2015 pssdforum.com
I’m a 28-year-old otherwise healthy male experiencing key symptoms of PSSD at now eight months after discontinuing 50mg per day of sertraline (generic Zoloft), which I took for one year and six months after being prescribed them for anxiety.
While on the meds, I experienced low libido and delayed orgasm, which I knew to be common side effects of SSRI antidepressants and therefore wasn’t alarmed. When I was ready to quit the meds, I tapered to a half dose, 25mg, for about a month, per my doctor’s advice.
A few months later, I noticed difficulty achieving and maintaining an erection. I then also realized that my typically strong morning erections had vanished at some point since being medicated, and that I had a considerably lower libido than I should. I checked online, found out about PSSD, nearly panicked. Now I have collected myself and just want to move forward the best way possible with an eye toward recovering an acceptable level of sexual health and function.
It was unfortunate that some of the first sites I read about this condition on were total gloom and doom. I was glad to find this forum where there’s an appreciable level of optimism and a “can-do” mentality. I appreciate the efforts of everyone in creating and contributing to this forum.
I have no advice or research to share at the moment, but I did want to introduce myself since I’ve been “lurking” the forum for a few months.
Now that I’ve posted an intro, I plan to share some more of my experiences in other posts. I have had a couple conversations with my doc about these symptoms that I’ll share later. I also picked up a 30-day trial of Cialis this week, so I’ll report back soon on whether I get any results from that. I know it’s not a fix, but I’m hoping it will at least serve as a patch in the meantime.
Cheers, and keep looking to the future.
Oct 30, 2013 paxilprogress.org
Sorry for my bad english i will try my best.
I stop taking ssri for tre months ago after 5 years using period.
No libido att all.
It takes just one minut to get orgasm if i masturbate.
I m very worying craying every day im just 34. I m almost sure this **** never get better..
Game Over ?
September 6, 2013 at 8:09 pm
Thank you for sharing your story. I am trying to better understand the emotional aspects of PSSD. My boyfriend stopped taking his SSRIs in March. We started going out in May, he is 22. He can get “sexually aroused” but there is a mental disconnect….an apathy. Its like he is unable to become excited about sex or intimacy. He says he “enjoys” sex, but I can tell he is faking it. I am trying to be patient and understanding but at times it really gets to me and I end up questioning myself worth. I really don’t know what to do. He is such an amazing person, and I know that I’m in love with him, but I want to be wanted too….Any thoughts?
March 11, 2014 at 6:41 am
Amy, I recognize your story. I used to take Efexor and it worked very good. I stopped taking them a couple of years ago. I recognize how your boyfriend feels. I too feel emotionally disconnected. I want to enjoy life, enjoy sex, feel happiness…. but it’s just not really there anymore. I love my husband, but don’t really care for any kind of intimacy anymore. It is a horrible state to be in. I’m sure your boyfriend would be different towards you if he could. This is not about you, this is about the horrible side effects of medication. If I knew then what I knew now, I would never, EVER have taken it. Ever.
December 23, 2013 at 4:15 pm
I have PSSD too, for almost 2 years now. Apart of problems with sexuality, I have noticed that i am less interested in relationship, and feell numb emotionally very offten. It is a very devastating condition. I also had several physical problems (like Parkinso-plus) but I managed it trying many medicines. Hopefully I do not have any problems with personality. Good luck
January 21, 2014 at 4:54 am
39-year-old male. I was put on Cymbalta for a month or so for depression. 30mg to begin with, then 60mg. Almost as soon as I started on 60mg it was like a light switch turned off my sexuality. No arousal, no visual stimulation, complete lack of interest. Two weeks later I met a lovely woman and when we got together intimately nothing happened for me. Nothing. I made the decision to immediately stop taking the drug to try and reverse the effects. This continued for several weeks, then a month or more. She gave me time but there was no improvement. Eventually we had to call it quits. I still get the odd nighttime and morning wood, but overall arousal and interest is still next to zero. I was depressed before, but now I’m depressed and devastated to lose my sexuality so suddenly. I have lost most interest in people and life. Will my libido ever come back like before? I have no idea. I am in limbo.
February 1, 2014 at 5:53 am
I have also been castrated by an SSRI. My psychiatrist poison-of-choice was Cipralex (escitalopram). I only used it for a couple of months, 5mg/day. Decided to stop once I realized it was the drug that was behind me becoming impotent and asexual. Probably goes without saying that before SSRI I had normal and active sex life and high sex drive.
The castrating effect appeared after the first pill but back then I could not connect the dots. How could I have known the impact can be so sudden! Only month and a half later did I realize what had happened and the culprit was immediately obvious. Before starting treatment I was told only ~10% of users experience any kind of sexual issues while on an SSRI and that sexual functioning would return to normal anyways once the drug had been stopped. This, of course, is not the case as we know.
I have been off escitalopram for almost a year and nothing has improved. For the first time in my life I have become suicidal. The iatrogenic damage done to my personality, sexuality, general well-being and social life is unimaginable. PSSD is not the only problem SSRI has given me. Ever since taking it I have bad cognitive problems, emotional flatness and skin numbness throughout my body.
This all has been verified by a medical doctor as SSRI-induced damage but there seems to be nothing that can be done I’ve been told. If time won’t repair the brain there is no hope. Let me point out that I had to see a dozen of doctors before I came across one who was aware of the phenomenon – PSSD.
February 9, 2014 at 4:51 pm
I am a 30 year old male. I have suffered from PSSD and persistent anhedonia/ emotional numbing for 6 years after taking Prozac 20mg for only 4 days. Every psychiatrist and psychologist I have been to either say “it can’t happen, the drug would have long worn off” or “it’s all to do with my thoughts and existing depression”. I have suffered tremenously from this and the NHS does nothing but add insult to injury. I feel truly alone in this battle against PSSD.
Dr Healy, if you are reading this, I really hope you find a cure. If only more doctors were as open minded as you. I would be so grateful if you could contact me if you are organising any clinical trials for potential treatments of PSSD in the future, I would very much like to participate.
Thanks for reading
March 1, 2014 at 2:12 pm
I think the original post and the commentaries that follow it grasp the devastation that SSRI/SNRI’s can have in those afflicted with PSSD. The diminutive notion that “there is more to life than sex” is upsetting on many fronts. The effect that sexuality and libido have in one’s life go far beyond simply the act of sex. The statement of “…I have no libido; there is no drive there at all, no desire or lust, no propelling force of nature” and “loss of identity” better capture the syndrome. With PSSD, there is no passion in anything. The chemical processes or disease of PSSD causes loss of pleasure in most things in life. Simply enjoying the little things in life are a struggle. Emotional blunting and anhedonia. Drive and motivation to achieve are crushed. While PSSD is known by some in the healthcare fields, many in the medical and psychological professions remain in the dark and continue to perpetuate that drug effects go away once stopped. PSSD is probably a result of epigenetics and perhaps alterations of dopaminergic and androgenic activities downstream. Sadly simply approaches such as TRT or dopamine agonists have not been effective. So far only time has led to PSSD resolution in those lucky enough to recover their “identities”.
March 4, 2014 at 10:03 pm
This story sums up how I feel perfectly. I also have gone to 10 different doctors and counting -all of them telling me ” this is impossible” “there is no way this can happen” well it did…but it wasn’t on an SSRI it was from taking Zolpidem (ambien) only twice! I have been through MRIs, dozens of blood tests, seen several psychiatrists, neurologists, pain specialists, psychologists…every test has turned up fine -but I know I am not the same outgoing, healthy person I was in Dec. of 2013. Since my drug injury, I have completely lost the ability to “feel” an orgasm connect in my brain..so it’s pleasureless. I can feel it down below, but it’s almost like someone has severed that connection to my mind that releases all the good chemicals after orgasm. I also on the same day this happened acquired a condition called PGAD which is also listed under the symptoms of PSSD. It’s been 3 months and I’m trapped between a feeling of unwanted and horrible arousal and then being unable to complete an orgasm for my body to relax. I was 100% healthy and sexually A-OK before taking this drug twice. If a doctor tells you “this is impossible” look them straight in the eye and say “well, actually it is possible, because it happened to me.” Since this happened I’ve fallen into the darkest depression I have ever been in my entire life. I have said everything Tony states in this article. I don’t feel a connection to the world now. Life feels pointless, dark, sad, boring and doesn’t have the same spark it used to before I acquired both PGAD and PSSD. Sex is a huge part of what makes us human, it gives us a reason to exist in a way. The concept of S-Death is very interesting to me and I’m learning more about since my drug accident/injury. I have heard it all from “sex isn’t everything” to “don’t worry you’ll get better” to “you’re depressed so you can’t feel anything including orgasm” I don’t buy into any of this nonsense. I’m not an idiot and I know what is going on in my body. Before this happened I only took an advil once in a while, now I would take anything to fix this problem, which I know is not possible. I think the best thing to do when dealing with doctors is to print out documents, show them the forums, show them the definitions, keep records from your other appointments, and keep trying until you find a doctor that takes you seriously. Be your own advocate! I have finally found some docs who will listen to me, but I am armed with a folder of scientific studies with sticky notes and tons of highlighting. lastly, SSRI’s definitely top the list for sexual dysfunction but Z-Drugs and other drugs need to be taken into account as well. These maybe rare issues, but they may not be, the number of people reporting this type of stuff might be low because it’s embarrassing – who knows. It’s definitely not embarrassing to me anymore since it ruined my life! I basically have nothing left but to hope I can help others not have to suffer the same fate as I did.
May 9, 2014 at 9:43 am
I am a female that too suffers for PSSD. It has been over three years like this. It all started immediately after the first pill I took. My psychiatrist put me on Cipralex, because he thought it will help the therapy go more smoothly. I took it for around a year. After discontinuing things only got worse. It ruined my life because of the anhedonia its given me. If it was only sexual dysfunction, I could probably live with it, but now I have zero emotions, I can’t focus, my memory is really bad, no motivation to do anything what so ever, I don’t enjoy ANYTHING anymore. I used to be a very emotional person, I love art… Without emotions are creating my life is empty…
I hope that one day, we all can be normal, happy people again.
Good luck to you all!
June 3, 2014 at 1:57 pm
Eight years ago I was on Paxil for close to 3 weeks for social anxiety. It worked well for the first week or two. My social anxiety was completely gone and for the first time in my life I just didn’t give a crap about anything. I also felt kind of strange at the same time almost dream-like. I had this surreal feeling going on.
One day I woke up without my morning erection and my penis was completely numb. My sexuality had gone from 100% to 0% overnight literally. The doctor said it was all in my head and to continue on the medication but I tapered off a few days later and had terrible withdrawal symptoms for a little while. Oddly I also noticed a lot of hair in the shower drain when I was on the paxil and some time following that. But I still have a full head of hair eight years later so there was no lasting impact on my hair fortunately.
Now eight years later my life is still ruined. I don’t have any close friends anymore. My dating life is ruined. My ambition has not come back and I feel dead inside much of the time. I still have PSSD too. I stopped saving for retirement because I just don’t care and I rather use all my money for the present moment.
I used to be horribly afraid of death before the paxil but now I don’t care if I die or not. In my mind I definitely want to be alive as long as possible I just don’t feel any fear at all about the prospect of death.
My social anxiety is still cured. I rarely get any sort of butterflies in my stomach and I don’t feel anxiety in my body like I did before the paxil. I would gladly take the social anxiety back if I could have the rest of my life back too.
August 20, 2014 at 6:41 am
This mirrors my experience. It is totally devastating. I’ve gone five and a half years without medication and I am sexually dead and without that I am nothing. Incidentally, my last brain zap was over a year after my last taking SSRI. The withdrawal is hell. These antidepressants are the most damaging drugs imaginable.
August 23, 2014 at 7:19 am
I Quote
“The State Attorney’s Office asked for a life sentence and chemical castration. Bowman is one of the few men in Florida who faced the unorthodox punishment.
State Attorney of the 7th Judicial Circuit R.J. Larizza said, “It’s an extreme measure and should be used in extreme circumstances, and we believe this was one of those extreme circumstances.
They wont give chemical castration to a rapist
I’ve never done any harm to anyone , just took Zoloft for 3 months 15 years ago & really doubt I will ever feel any sexual pleasure again.
October 26, 2014 at 1:45 am
5 mg Lexapro stole my life in 4 days. I stopped right when I noticed…but I fear it’s been too late. It’s coming up on two months now since my last pill. The only thing number than my dick is my emotions. You think that love is central to the human existence? You’re wrong. Love is purely a chemical reaction. Nothing more. I learned that the hard way. Used to be a devout Christian, now I’m Atheist. Used to have moderate anxiety, now I have severe depression. I WANT MY ANXIETY BACK.
I lost my best friend, my sexuality, my happiness, my confidence, my desire, my affection, my faith, my trust. Worst of all…I think I’ve lost myself. Somewhere along the road I lost myself. I am not the same person that I was even 60 days ago. How’s that for depressing? I have no positive emotions. No affection. Just Anger, Sadness, Disbelief, and Hatred. I This all feels like a dream. Can I please wake the f*** up? F*** you Lexapro.
November 3, 2014 at 2:19 pm
I’m sorry, it’s a living nightmare and I know because I’m living it myself.
Hopefully in time you will improve, it’ll be a slow process but your body has the ability to heal itself. You’ll have to be incredibly patient with yourself, especially as 10 minutes when your feeling the way you are can seem like hours.
I wish I’d never touched antidepressants but the damage is done, I as you have have learnt an extremely difficult and painful lesson but desperation is incredibly powerful and it’s desperation that coerced you into taking them in the first place.
God works in mysterious ways? It doesn’t get any more mysterious than this but I still believe he is there. He’s not going to cure you miraculously though I wish he would but he can give you the strength that you need to tough out the early stages of recovery and beyond.
You have to be patient, the alternative is grim and I know because I think about it often.
The brain should not be tampered with with exception of course but antidepressants are more damaging than I’d ever thought possible.
Take care
June 18, 2015 at 1:57 pm
Citalopram has ruined my life too. I have no sexual emotions, nothing. I have also ended up unemployed.
November 30, 2014 at 9:42 am
Lexapro ruined my life.
I want my penis back.
I want to get erections
I want to feel the enjoyment of a woman
I want to masturbate
I want to feel like a man again
I want my life back
January 13, 2015 at 1:58 pm
..5 weeks on Citalopram – lost all joy of life and the sadness too, all emotions and, the worst – love to my husband, who used to be anything for me… Gained PSSD and anhedonia… I’m off it now, depression is back, worse than ever… I wouldn’t mind it if I only loved him… I’m even not able to cry any more… And there is no cure, it seems… I don’t want to, can’t live this life any more but there are my little ones there – even towards them I feel kind of… indifferent? I’m not a human beeing now, I’m a dummy…
January 15, 2015 at 11:19 pm
Antidepressants help absolutely nobody. They just numb a person’s emotions. They make a person not care about whatever real problems they had before. And then while taking and after stopping the drugs a person can find that they don’t care about ANYTHING anymore. Its a miserable emotional numbness. No more sadness, anxiety, guilt, or remorse, but also no more happiness, love, excitement, or hope. Just a blank, logical, hopeless existence.
Also, no more emotions tied to memories. The happiest moments of your life now seem like just another moment. Its like you can’t even remember how you felt in those times because you literally can’t feel that emotion anymore. This is why satisfied antidepressant users say they didn’t realize they were “depressed their entire lives before their antidepressant”. They can’t even remember how they felt before because they’ve lost the ability to feel.
I believe many if not most antidepressant users get PSSD. I’ve spoken with some people I know personally about their antidepressant sexual side effects. My friend I talked to bragged about being able to last a long time in bed now. He thinks it because his genital sensitivity is a lot lower. He hasn’t taken an SSRI in about a year. He said his libido was “too high” before the antidepressant anyway. He doesn’t care about relationships anymore and is a cold person. He said relationships are a “waste of time”. I asked if he knew if he would ever go back on an SSRI and he said he absolutely will if his depression comes back which he said he expects it to. Its like he doesn’t even realize/care that his libido and sexual pleasure was stolen from him and that he is suicidal now because of it. The hope of love and sex is what keeps a person living. Its in our nature. Take that away and what does a person have to live for?
Antidepressants are the biggest scam of all time. Scam isn’t even a strong enough word to describe them. They are a crime against humanity. Poison handed out to the masses as “healthy medication”. These drugs take away what makes a person human. They give a person a brain problem instead of “treating” one. I can only hope more awareness grows for the dangers and permanent effects that these drugs have.
January 21, 2015 at 10:57 pm
This week marks a year since the terrible PSSD began last January 2014. Took Celexa 40 MG for 5 months. PSSD for me is complete lack of genital arousal, orgasm a distant memory, morning erections completely gone, total erectile dysfunction. Deeper is the complete lack of sexual arousal. Women walking by might as well be cars passing on the street. The chemical process of attraction in our brains has been altered. Worse than the PSSD though is the ahedonia; the complete lack of feeling pleasure or excitement. It is though my emotions have been taken away and all that is left is a shell of who I used to be. Quite simply, these “medications” take away part of our humanity.
It is true the drugs will be out of your system in a few weeks or months. But the chemical changes they made to our brains, sometimes they don’t go away after taking them.
Those who think these symptoms are just in our heads simply do not understand. I know cars, driven and fixed them my whole life. One day I come out and the engine will not start. At all. Nothing. I cannot fix it. I ask others for help (I’m talking to you doctors) and am told “That is impossible” “It’s all in your head” “If you think the engine won’t start it certainly will not” Look, I may have been talking crazy drugs but I ain’t crazy, I know when shit is broken and when it works.
I want to say say everything will be alright. I wish I could say we will all get better in time. I wish I could say it really is not as bad as we make it out to be. Only thing we have is hope.
Hope that our brains heal and get better in time.
January 22, 2015 at 7:43 am
Reading through these comments is like reading through every thought I’ve had over the past five months. I stopped taking Citalopram in September 2014 almost ten years after they were first prescribed to me. I felt happy and satisfied in life, but slightly numb and emotions were dulled. I also didn’t want to be taking an SSRI if I ever fell pregnant, so made the decision to stop.
I’m 26 now, and it makes me utterly terrified to think of the damage they’ve caused to my brain as I’ve grown up. What started off originally as mild anxiety has turned into full blown depression recently. I’m absolutely certain that this is the effects of PSSD (emotionless, no passion, no enjoyment of anything I ever do, no motivation, complete indifference towards anything sexual despite having the most beautiful boyfriend who I am in love with and couldn’t resist previously, sadness, irritability) but when explaining this to the doctor I am simply told to start taking the medication again. After being on 10mg of Citalopram previously, he’s now tried to prescribe me 50mg of Sertraline, and told me that it’s absolutely impossible that these current feelings could be caused by the drug. Needless to say I have declined.
It’s frightening how quick they are to prescribe these drugs, and how they cannot understand that taking something for almost ten years might have a lasting effect when discontinued!? All it takes is a quick Google search and the results are evident, yet every medical professional I’ve spoken to (both NHS and private) seems completely unaware of the side effects that can occur.
Anyway, it seems I am lucky in the severity of my issues, as although it feels like my world is falling down around me most days I do have some sexual desire (although completely dulled and very rare) and with a LOT of exercise and eating right I can have days where my mood lifts and I begin to feel human again. I have also recently started therapy. I do believe it takes time, a lot of time, to begin to heal, and I can only hope that normal life will start to return slowly and that one day I can say that I am ‘over’ PSSD. We can only hope I guess.
Good luck to everyone out there suffering with this.
February 10, 2015 at 2:36 am
I am on the other side – I am the husband (50) who’s wife (51) is struggling with PSSD. She’s been on SSRI’s for 20+years. It’s been a nightmare – up and down – changing back and forth when drugs lose their efficacy. Our sex life has been bad for years – I even started tracking our sex life in Sept. 2012. Today is Feb. 10, 2015, we’ve had sex 23 times in 894 days. That’s once every 40 days or so. Our current streak is 62 days. We had sex last on Dec. 10, 2014. Now she has quit taking her meds. she is about a month in, but I really don’t know if her libido will ever come back. When we do have sex It’s because she finally feels guilty enough to give in. She has an orgasm most times and she seems to like it once we start but ZERO drive to do anything sexy- kiss- fondle ZERO. I’ve never gone outside our marriage – But I would let my wife f**k someone else (man or woman) in a heartbeat if it would wake her sexuality up. But sadly I don’t know if she’ll ever snap out of it. I’d like to sue anti-depressant companies. It’s hard to put a price on the loss of a sex life but I’d like to try!
March 1, 2015 at 1:41 pm
PSSD is worse than hell, worse than death, and I do not say that lightly. It is a curse that makes me feel death is much preferable to the constant, grinding, hidden misery of my current existence. I am not even ‘depressive’. I am simply not whole anymore.
Thanks to a 26-month course of Citalopram then Fluoxetine between 2011-2013, my once-immense libido feels completely and chemically destroyed. All excitement suddenly and unexpectedly excised. I am a very loving 40-year old male who thrives in longterm relationships and over the last few years, I have felt like only half a man, attractive to and attracted to women yet without any sexual capacity. All thrill is dead. All recent relationships have failed due to this factor.
I am in a deeply loving relationship with a very special woman right now, I have been honest and told her and she has been amazingly supportive yet I fear failure further down the line. She is amazing in every way, she is a gift from the gods and every time I fail her, more and more of me dies inside. We are so close and in tune but I feel so sad for her, defeated, part of me wants to let her go and find someone ‘complete’…I know she loves me deeply and does not want this but inside I feel like some tragic, pointless monster, feel like I’m holding her back. I put a brave face on but it is killing my heart, my soul.
Many would say “be thankful to be alive”. I cannot live this way. I want us to be complete. Losing that thrill is losing possibly THE main motivator of life for me…no excitement, no reward, yet I still have the extremes of attraction and emotion. The frustration of this limbo…the fact I still have it over 18 months after discontinuing the meds…I cannot take it much longer….I do not want to lose this person.
Despite all the above, I am a positive person and will try to live on in hope.
March 13, 2015 at 4:03 pm
Same story here, over 7 years now and no changes, lost everything had all, had fantastic libido and my brain was sharp as fcuk, but all ended in one second after i withdraw, somebody just shut the lights out…. brain penis connection lost, empty head, empty soul, no feelings, dead inside and outside, i can only consider this as a sort of punishment coz i left my wife and son one day…..it has happended after couple of months i left them…. so u know….. and now i’m left alone, handsome man now 37 but dead…. hell on earth – PERIOD
May 6, 2015 at 1:28 pm
these stories are not encouraging. i took an ssri for a week this march, 2015. i have had no personality or sex drive since. long term prognosisis not good
May 11, 2015 at 11:59 pm
Suffering the same issue here. I’m a 25 year old male that started Zoloft 2
Months ago due to some depression that my manager at work told
Me was surely a “chemical imbalance” I was against these drugs and didn’t want to use them , but finally caved as she’s been on them for years and year and said they saved her life. I started at 25 mg for 1 week and felt nothing, then I bumped up to 50 mg for 2 weeks also felt nothing, the doctor bumped it up to 100 mg and my tongue went numb so she went down to 75 mg till the numbness in my tongue went away then put me back on 100. Still felt nothing I felt like I was losing emotion.. My manager at work then told me “take 150 mg” clearly 100 isn’t enough for you.. So I took 150 mg for 4 days and my doctor lost it on my said don’t self medicate … Well maybe she should have told me how evil these were. Let me tell you I had been dating my gf for 7 months and seen her every day, she gave me butterflies just by thinking when I was gonna see her through text even if I just dropped her off.. She gave me butterflies when I kissed her. The sex was like no other, I posted a picture every other day on Instagram to show the world how much I loved her. She’s my soul mate and it was the craziest high I ever felt.. I was in the honeymoon phase for 7 fkn months and I had a bit of “depression” so started taking Zoloft.. My love then started dying, I stopped posting pics of us, I stopped telling her I loved her as much, she didn’t feel special at all and I didn’t connect the dots that Zoloft robbed me of my love and happiness .. It made me lose my honey moon phase that I thought would never go away.. I told me practitioner I wanted off these meds and she tried to prescribe another one to go along with the Zoloft I’m on. 300 mg Wellbutrin and I refused. I wanted off .. I have no emotion anymore. The course of my meds was around 2 months.. 100 mg was the dose that I did for about three weeks. Now as I started tapering down, 100 to 50 mg for a week, then 25 mg for a week, I lost all sensitivety and feeling down there. I can get boners but it’s completely numb. I have no urge to have sex and my gf feels like I lost all attraction towards her when she is the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. I used to have tears in my eyes telling people how much I loved my gf. It was cloud nine… These meds have stripped me of all my love and happiness and all emotion. It’s all gone, everyone keeps telling me it’s gonna come back give it time for them to leave you system . And I’m hoping they’re right. My question to any of you is, since I used this for only 2 months.. And only a few weeks at a high dose , am I more likely to get feeling back vs someone that used it for years? I’m terrified .. I feel dead inside with 0 emotion all because of these drugs that were supposed to make me happy? They did the exact opposite . My gf tells me she will never give up and she’ll be here and we’ll get through this, but what if I never get the love and honeymoon feeling ever again? What if my penis is numb forever? I even started using some testosterone injections for increase libido.. Nothing yet. I don’t know.. So lost . Have no feeling, no love, no emotion. It’s scary to see everyone with the same horror stories. I really hope we all feel human again one day, you guys are not alone. God bless
May 13, 2015 at 7:25 am
3 Months on Zoloft back in Dec 1999
went cold turkey March 2000
got sick of the lack of sex drive
I had hoped after a week or so id be back to what I was
Still waiting
No Lust
No Orgasm
No desire
Tried all sorts of diets , fitness routines , No alcohol for months
nothing made any difference to these issues
I’ve been chemically castrated !!!
June 14, 2015 at 4:16 am
I am also suffering from post ssri sexual dysfunction.
It have been 2 years since I stopped SSRI but my sexual functionality has not been back.
Help please!!!
June 19, 2015 at 10:51 am
I think Citalopram and Escitalopram are the 2 worst SSRIs for causing permanent sexual dysfunction. I have had PSSD for over a year now. I stopped taking Citalopram in June 2014, but my sexual feelings did not come back. My penis size has also shrunk. I have lost my sexuality completely. It is devastating. I think it is doubtful there will ever be a cure. I wish I had never taken Citalopram. When I was prescribed Citalopram, I assumed it would be a safe drug – but it is not safe at all – it destroys people’s lives.
September 26, 2015 at 11:34 pm
I took Paxil 20 years ago. So I have desensitation of the head of my penis. Obviously I had an overactive penis when I was younger so it numbs the senses quite drastically. Of course now that I am older I would love to have that youthful vigor back again. Obviously I was on the edge when I was younger and had panic attacks so I chose the antidepressant option. You know you think a pill should help you and certainly not damage you but as posted in some of the previous comments, looks like I’m taking it to my grave. Unless someone figures it out maybe there’s a pathway with another drug, let me know if you guys figure it out
December 26, 2015 at 10:39 am
I`ve been on Efexor 150mgx2 daily, Epilum 300mg, perizal 2mg for 9 years. Problem was over these 9 years, I couldn`t tell the difference between anything, couldn`t figure out how I used to be before it, whether my feelings is just me etc etc. So 2 weeks ago, the company didn`t deliver due to their screw up with the prescription, so I decided to stop it outright and see if there is anything better without the meds and side effects if you don`t take them for a day or 2.
Well I`m pretty much in withdrawel still. It`s been little over 2 weeks, I`m irritable, still feel lightheaded some days, ultra depressed with no sense of general feeling. I`d kill just out of irritation regardless of what a person does. Problem that worries me, I`ve been detached from people for years after my long relationships failed. Now I read these effects might be permanent or carry on for years. I now suffer from a 10 second premature ejaculation and I`m really not confident about anything and not interrested in sex, although my sex drive is intact and I can get an errection like normal no worries.It`s more of a mental block for me to not want to engage and is embarrassing. Any ideas, will it get better as time moves on or am I now permanently supersensitive and broken?
January 10, 2016 at 7:12 pm
I got the very same thing since 2008, so almost 10 years, I’ve lost all my sexuality in every aspect. I was a sexual machine, the happiest man on the planet, whole life was in front of me wide open. So called GP’s, doctors, medicine specialist, these are the minions of satan himself. SSRI’s are the biggest crime and scam to kill us from inside. The worst thing is that we paid for this in $, and they are propably heaving a good time and they are laughing coz they gave us POISON which takes away the most wonderful thing that GOD gave us. Stop heaving a fate that it will all return, it won’t!. Most scary thing is …. I only hope our souls are intact!! I’ve got the feeling those poison pills could have damaged or even destroy it.
January 10, 2016 at 7:37 pm
i got more to add…. I’ve lost not only sexuality but they made me completly different person, complete depersonalization. I was a tough guy, heavily built, God gave me excellent brain & body and it’s preformance, SSRI took all that away. I had to go through hell to somehow manage not to kill myself cuz of a zombie emptiness inside. No feelings, no emotions, people thought I got crazy or something, I’ve left everything and everybody, I used to be everywhere, I’ve had so many interests, I was creative, my brain was perfect now it’s all gone…. I was looking for ways to finish all this shi tt cuz there was no help coming from “doctors” and “specialists”, nobody belive in this or they all know about this but they are scared to not allow this to go to official. No motivations for anything, no needs, complete emptiness, zombie life, worst than anything, prison life cuz I’m not able to kill myself, no social life. God bless You if He does exists
April 6, 2016 at 6:50 pm
I recently came off of prozac and abilify after being involuntarily admitted to an impatient pysch ward. I have no sexual sensations at all, no arousal, no excitement, no orgasm, and there is no improvement happening. I have a feeling this will be long-lasting, as it seems to have completely shut down my sexual response on all levels. I feel nothing but sadness, and I lay in bed all day with no future romance or sexuality to anticipate. I am isolated and alone, but live with my family and have a daughter, and that is the only reason I am still alive. I am terrified that my daughter could someday be placed on these medicines, and feel like I am living only out of fear of what would happen to her if I were dead. I lost my sexuality and my love and passion for existing, cannot enjoy music, friendship, conversation or even nice weather anymore. I feel like my soul has been scraped out of me.
April 8, 2016 at 9:07 pm
SSRIs do not make you feel good. They make you feel nothing. The effects last long after you have stopped taking the SSRI, permanent for some like me. I was mis-diagnosed with depression when I was actually suffering from apnea. After I had taken Paxil, Effexor and Citalopram for several years, a really smart ORL correctly diagnosed me as suffering from severe apnea and put me on a CPAP. I began noticing the effects of the SSRIs soon enough and have been “living” with the results. Not only the sexual effects, but also a cognitive disconnect, loss of interest in my favorite activities like drawing and music, a deterioration in my memory. I used to learn languages with ease and now that is gone too. I am experimenting with maca , tryptophan, and ginko. Will update if there is any positive results
June 7, 2016 at 10:56 am
Celexa castrated me from one dose in 2013. I feel such anger reading all these posts. It is so sick. This needs to be exposed and we need to find a cure. They know exactly what they’re doing.
September 12, 2016 at 12:21 pm
Sorry to say, I can’t see any company spending the millions of dollars trying to find a cure
Or if they do anything, would be just to prevent it occurring in new users.
Our only hope would be a side effect from a new drug designed to do something else
16 Years now & given up hope
PSSD has made it impossible for me to orgasm for almost 3 years
I am a 24 year old woman. For about a year, from Oct 2011 to mid/late 2012 I took sertraline, the generic of Zoloft. It wasn't an incredibly high dosage; I think I was up to 150mg by the end. I had been suffering from depression and was stressed about my impending graduation, entry into the real world, moving home states away from the friends I had made, etc. etc.
Before taking this medication, I had had what I think was a pretty healthy, rather active sex drive. I was in a long distance relationship but things were going fine. I had 1-3 orgasms per day, which I think is a pretty normal amount.
I quit taking the Zoloft (just quit, didn't taper) because I was afraid it was taking away my sex drive, and I didn't think I needed it. Upon quitting I was alright emotionally for the most part (it can be hard to tell at times -- my boyfriend is very depressed too, more than I was or am, but has not received treatment) but the damage to my sex drive was done. I think I have had an orgasm once since stopping, but I definitely have not had one in the last 2.5-3 years.
This has led to all kinds of horrible thought processes for my boyfriend, who thinks I am no longer attracted to him (I am!), or that this is just how women are and that women don't actually have sex drives (no!), and that he is a horrible person for still having sexual desires when I don't have them (no!). We have tried many, many times to help this problem but nothing he or I can do seems to make it work. Plus I get scared because I am nervous I won't have one, and this psychs me out, making the problem worse. I have tried taking several supplements that claim to help this condition, such as yohimbe, with no luck.
I have tried to explain this problem to my doctor/gynecologist, and she has been completely useless. She just says "the female libido is more complicated than men's, more of a mental thing" etc. which is very frustrating and not something I believe. How can I go from regularly having 1-3 orgasms a day, easily, about 4 years ago, to being unable to have a single one? The turning point was clearly the Zoloft.
At this point, I feel like I could live without ever having an orgasm again. That would be fine. But I wish I could get any of my sex drive back at all, because I think it would help my boyfriend hate himself a little less. I am looking for anyone who had this problem and eventually their sex drive came back, or possibly some medication to try though at this point I am very skeptical. Most people I have seen experiencing PSSD have been men so some perspective from women going through the same thing would be helpful, too. Or other supplements that have actually worked for people.
Mar 23, 2015
Hi everyone,
I was on fluvoxamine from the age of 15-16 to about 21 years of age when I decided to taper quite aggressively at the advice of a doctor. My sex drive while on the medication was still fairly strong, however, like a lot of you it seemed to disappear when I went off the medication. Everything about me changed. I lost interest and motivation for things I used to enjoy and its never been the same. I always knew something was different about me after I stopped the meds but no one believed me. I have gone through so many avenues looking for answers. I recently went to a well known organization trying to plead my case but they just said I have dysthymia.
I can't still have sex with a woman and my orgasm still feels as good as it used too but my desire or list for women is almost completely absent.
The only time this ever came back was when I went on vacation to BC and did rigorous amounts of exercise. I felt like me again, but it was short lived. I like all of you have been searching for answers and my level of hope and optimism is decreasing at a steady pace. I don't feel like a sexual male anymore. My response to visual stimuli is almost absent, but through physical touch I have no problem getting an erectio.
I was on fluvoxamine for OCD and anxiety if that information is relevant.
Thanks
Mar 27, 2015 9:43 am
Hello i have 29 years old, sorry for my poor english
I was sad cause of heartbreak and i took evil pills
i took this fuck*** Escitalopram (Seroplex) for 2 weeks at 20 mg a high dose i think
i stopped it 2 months ago (cold turkey)
i saw in the 7 days of taking it i have no sexual reaction but didn't care of this i was too sad and thougt it was normal
I have genital anesthesia, absent libido, ejaculatory anhedonia. I have also emotional blunting
I am not attracted to women now
i see i have no emotion, nothing makes me happy even things i loved.
I want to be as before
i want to have my emotions coming back, it's more important than sexual issue for me.
Emotions is what make us be human.
I am just a robot now a zombie.
I saw this forum i don't know if anybody has emotional blunting.
Is there something that could help me?
In fact i have many suicidal ideas i didn't go to my job since 2 months.
I am anxious i want to feel happy like before.
But my brain say, now be a zombie.
Sorry for my poor english
i would like to know what to do i cannot support not having emotional reaction
Life is cruel
